So Strong Tower has been really good lately. Pastor Erica asked all of us girls what questions we had about dating and she's going to go one by one through them over the next couple of weeks. This week was really good - some of the questions were something like:
what are the areas of physical contact and how far is too far?
how do you know they're the right one to date?
what is the right/wrong motivation to date?
how do you know they're the right one to marry?
how do you be content in the current season you're in/not be anxious?
They're all questions that are really good, but the last one can really be applied to anything in life; it doesn't have to do with just dating. Pastor Erica's response to the question was to be grateful for the season you are in. She mentioned that we should write down what we are grateful for. So the following are things I am really grateful for at this time in my life:
Pastor's Eric and Erica - being poured into each week
EC
My EC brothers and sisters
ESOM
volunteering in the 2's room
my job at the daycare in the waddler room
my car
my family relationships
Gwyn
Deanna
my school history
my past at SAU and how I can use what I learned now in EC
Pastors Jeff and Beth
Matt Munson and Michelle Snow
Sarah Hornback
Mallary Nisbett
PJ
being at Western and my professors and what they are pouring into to me in that way
finances - God is providing!
bridge card
laptop
It is good to go back over and instead of thinking and getting inpatient about the season I'm in...thinking on the positive and what God has blessed me with already that I have right now and not always thinking about what's going to happen in the future.
So talking about dating at Strong Tower has really gotten me thinking about dating (kind of a "duh" no-brainer, right?). I'm still getting over the mindset that I will never find anyone who really will love me enough to marry me, what if I really even want to get married, the I'm not good enough to be married...blah blah blah. I want to believe that he'll come around some day and I want to believe that I will date and get married some day it's just hard to believe right now. I've never even had a guy friend, why would somebody want to marry a girl who hasn't even gotten to know other guys as just friends??? But I have to tell myself that things change, people change, times change and maybe someday someone will come along.
So what if that happens sooner then later? What if a guy starts to like me before I've really figured out what I want to do with my life. Would someone really want to date someone who thinks she wants to live overseas for a few years, maybe forever, after she graduates college. It just seems like a waste of time. Why date someone when you think you might not even be in the country over the next couple of years? I don't know...it's just something I think about during the heart to heart...I know Pastor Erica will help me process it in our one in one. I just wanted to make sure I had thought it through what I've been thinking out on "paper."
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