The Past Year

I have come a long way since last year at this time, or so my mom says. I trust her because she pretty much is my best friend and probably knows me the best. And although this is probably true, I don't see it myself too much. I still feel as though I'm in a funk. Last year at this time, I was probably sitting in my dorm room dreading the next couple of weeks of j-term at Spring Arbor. Hoping that I would be able to make it through without any friends really and without Deanna. Little did I know how not far I would be able to go.

I got really depressed. Decided to try and commit suicide and failed multiple times. Finally I decided God must have something more for me, so I tried to move on and get better. That is what this past year has been, trying to get better and move on. For the most part I've done pretty good considering how some people come out of a depression like that. I was able to get a car within a few months of being out of the hospital. I was also able to find the perfect job working at a Christian daycare in the Waddler room (the age between infant and toddler). I still work there (when I get the hours and can) and love it.

I also decided to do a big life change in this past year. I decided to not be apostolic pentecostal anymore. I cut and dyed my hair, I wear pants, pierced my ears, wear make up and jewelry, etc. all things a "true apostolic" would never do. I also stopped believing some of the fundamental beliefs that apostolics believe. Looking that far back I guess I have changed a lot. People who knew me from before would probably have a hard time recognizing me. Along with this life change, I decided to change churches. I changed to the church my mom is going to, Valley Family Church. I started going to their college night program on Thursday, called Threshold. Through this I decided to take part in a two-year discipleship program called EPIC Commission.